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2009-08-12T15:19:00.002+08:00

hey..
jus a short update bfre i go to meet my PO"probation ofcr".
hmph.
luckily its jus a WARNNG"fuuh"
but actually i have my points, i cant thnk properly at those days.
Jus thnkng how hurt and dissapointd Im, I made d wrng dcision to run away frm problms but actually its true runng frm problms dont solve anytng but thr will be additional problms comng next. hmph.
And btw today im so hpy, yippie.
I got new job at mapletree industries.
Bken filng, okylh.
Gpon dis job is for temp until i found a suitable and perm job.
My dad pon nk g Dubai by 1st Sep.
Hmph, so he's not gg to celebrate Hari Raye wif us dis year.
A sad tng but wad do, have to sacrifice.
Kte bkn org senng pon klao nk pleh2 keje kn?
Tkkn nk hrpkn my dad je, Im big enough to support myslf.
Hmph. For dis raye, quite sad, actually very sad cos hvng a crisis wif mumy and baba is gg overseas. So left Mama, Aaliya and me.
Naseb ade Amy, so i wont feel dat Lonely.
Haha klaa, gtg.
Runng quite late.
Btw I love you, Dynea Firliyana.
P.s."insyaAllah nnt mama blykn baju raye kk."

2009-08-09T14:27:00.000+08:00

Hello my pple.

Its so long since i last blog, rght?!
Well lifes have its ups and down.
My life is getng sucks aftr noeing d truth dat I didnt expect to hpen aftr 13 yrs.
Well pple get influenced. But they jus dont realised dat their LOVE ONES still need them, sadly they still continue wif their Bad HABITS! I jus Hate to say dat I REGRET TNGS LIKE THIS HPENS IN MY LIFE. Supposely Im havng a Beautiful Life, but in d end it turns out to be a DULL one. But wad to do, life needs to move on.

Rgret of leavng d prson I used to Love and Hate. Cos now den I realised evrytng I do have a choice. But I jus follows wad d evils say and ignore wad d angels whisper. And now thrs no use of shedng blood tears cos I noe tngs I hve been hopng, frm past will nvr hpen jus bcos of my small mistkes. And lovng d prson dat Im wif now is very hard cos Im havng diffulties of frgtng smeone. If only I ignore those childish thots, mybe Im hpy wif him till now even though smetmes I felt left out. But wen I sat down and squeeze my brain to flashback, he sacrifice alot of tngs for me. Now den I realised its hard to frgt d love dat I had for yrs. Thnkng of him can make me cry, smile and laugh. Its easy to say but its hard to prove smetng dat I cant afford to lose. Hmph.

Aku mysl, sungguh2 mysl krane aku mash meyintaimu..

2009-07-16T12:58:00.003+08:00

Hey2..

Its been so long since i last blog.
A lot of tngs hpen since my last entry.
A hapy and sad one.

Finally i found out d truth, Sam.
I only have u as my Lonely bf, but u didnt realised.
Until oneday, I saw u wif dis "girl".
Holding hands along d street.
I wasnt feelng angry but well Im cheated again.
Fr GUYS out thr yg dh pena maenkn prasaan, Fna. tk cukp2 pe?!
Well i didnt cry but my Heart was so pain, full of questions.
Not only bout Sam, but also othrs.
Demi ko, aku dh lukekn hati org yg btol2 sygkn ku.
But u dont appreciate those sacrifices.
Hmph, pade ku llaky smue same, tk tawu nk appreciate ppn.
I BrokeUp wif dis JERK!

And well im hapy wif dis extraordinary guy.
His not like some othr guys I've met bfre.
His totally different.
Eg.
1:Nvr in love.
2:Nvr in r'ship.
3:Not a MATREP.
Many2 more lh.

We've been frnd for 4 mths and he dcided to proceed wid d next step.
RELATIONSHIP!
Im soooooooooooo hapy to be wif him.
Btw we are in a Clean relationship!
huhu!
His not use to normal r'ship, whre thrs huggng, kissng and more......
Btw thks to him cos bcose of him im finally back in gd terms wif Farahdiana.

EEEEEEEEEEE!
pissoff!
wads hpenng to my tagboard?!
well its all messup wif those words.

Well Specially for You,
Mmg aku kind of Sad wen i saw u wif ur gf.
But well flashng back to d past im so HURT.
I was advice enough to frgt You.
Crying not bcos of im Jlous, but flashng back my tormented past wif You.
Ckop lh eh, ank ttp ank.
Biar org nk ckp ape ckplh, ku dh tk kisah lgy.
Ckop org maenkn prasaan ku.
If i can turn back time, i will turn back d time wen I get to noe You.
If only I can, dats a Miracle.
Enough of all this craps.
Im leavng You alone, so do you.
Antare kite, jus a frnd.
I wont bring any of frnd on dat day.
Cos Im not dat kind of girl.
Btw, last long.
Tkcre.............

2009-06-30T17:04:00.002+08:00

hey2..

bord pe nary.
hangout wif my colleagues at tampines safra.
i was like sesat u noe, hahahahahha..
nmpk "usop" la beb. pemnt setiaku, naseb baek die tk sombg.
I LuRp u la fren.. heeeeee.
actually tody was suppose to go out wif boify, tgok transformer pas tu nk shoppng p too bad Boss yg sialan tu delay2 tme to gve our pay.
nk kac gaji pon sush pe, SIAL BTOL!
aku benci ko,EDDY!
Sdeh sak ary tu ku nmpk ssorg yg ku syg dgn seorg ppn:(
WTF! tpy tkpe i noe u dservd smeone beta den me.
Well dis 2o July is Dynea's bday, smpi skg i tk tawu nk blykn ank ksygan ku ape.
Well for my bloved Farhanah, nk blykn ank sdare mu ape eh?!
Pening kple cik pkkn tao.
haiyooo.
klaa, gtg.
well eddy if u tk kac gaji kte offce barumu ku bkr dong.
haha.
no joke eh BOSS!

2009-06-28T18:26:00.003+08:00

Haiyoooooo.

Im so Fuckng PISSOFF!
frstly its about dis GUY, Muhd Suhaimi..
D few days bfre, i and Amy was oky, mcm biase jgk.
Suddenly Boify text me, "U nga watpe?"
And i said "barg2, U?"
He said he was with Amy, "lepakng".
He told me dat Amy told him, "Ku syg Aisya siol!"
Boify was like, "huh?!" and ask me, "U Amy ckp die syg u, wats ur commnt"
And i say, "die tk tawu ke kte da patch back? i confused ah.
At last he noe d fuckng truth!

D msg he sent me......
Aku kene marah rabak2 and advise rabak2 to fr in love wif u. Evn though i shre dis story, im sory. Aku tk pena nnges rbk gny krne ppn. Ko btol2 maeenkn prasaan org, aku btol2 tk pena sket cm gny smpi 3 ary tk tdo, aku bkn kish psl ko sorg, p untok ank ko jgk. Aku btol2 mysl gler in love ngn ko. Aduh2! Sket gler siak hty aku. Aku mntk maaf klao aku pena buat slh ngn ko. Nie bkn ckp dry mulut, tpy dry hty, ko angon,bace. Hope d very3 best for you.....

Lilo's msg.....
Sha Amy tk kaC ku pass perfume tu kat ko, die nk pass sndry. Ku malu sak, ngn Amy. Mcm2 die ckp kt ku psl ko. Ape nie Sha. Bler ade yg baek, ko tknk. Aku tgokkn Amy ksian sak. Sam kaC ko k***8*k pe?! klao in d frst plce ko ckp ko sygkn Sam. Kn senang so dat poor guy dnt ave to fall for u. Nie llaky yg ko da bodh2 kn, tk syg da byk tolg ko. Im disappointd in u. Btw u are his first love k. Tc!

My feelngs pple!
Hey2.. Pls la. Ive ordy tell him not to put high hopes on me pe. My love is jus for a persn, bkn Sam tpy sme readers out thre should noe k. Amy, ive ordy tell u dat and yet u are stll tryng ur very2 best to win my heart. Im sory if ive hurt u, but frm d bttm of my heart, i dont mean it k. Evn though i patch back wif Sam, his only my Lonely boify.
But in dis heart only stands for a guy "*****"..
Klaa, tuesdy da dpt gaji so im gg to chnge my no, to avoid you, Amy!

2009-06-22T17:23:00.002+08:00

hey2..

boredboredboredboredbored!!

on 2o june 2oo9, i left Red Bee.
Berat hati jgak to leave dat compamy but its for my own gd la.
Smpi ble nk keje cmtu kn?
Tody i start a new job kt Buona Vista, Nur recommended me!
Kate ADMIN, ape nie jadi telemarketer lagi.
PENAT TAO COL2 ORG!!
I like have to woke early2 morning la sey. Skg nie tgh ngntok d gler..
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
I and dady is not in gd terms, jus bcos i quit dat job!
Ape sey, salah ke if i quit dat job.
Its my choice pe nk keje mane.
Smpi skg his not talkng to me.
Tk sdeh, p frustrated!
huhuu!

Saturday!
I went to PASIRRIS.
Met nana, had lunch wif me.
We ate KEBAB, sodoop!
huhuhuU!
Aftr kakty cme!
nana went back to werk, whle i and kakty blek togthr.
She went to simei, bought cake to celebrate Father DAY.
Sam thot of meetng me, but U SUCKS!
Im gg to LILO'S plce.
HPY BDAY LILO!
But unfrtunately, craps hpen.
Fr those in d incdent should noe la eh.
Im not revealng d CRETS aits..
Dlm bus keep on pk2 cmne bley jdy.
Haiz, wad a BADLUCK.

Sunday.
Wokeup in d morning, clearup d cabinet.
Mumy cook spagetti.
Tk tawu knpe i jus cant stop cryng sey.
Aftr dat told mumy dat im gg to baba's hse, tapi baba ku tkde la.
Hmph, den pgy lilo's plce.
At frst, lilo wasnt at hme.
Die pgy uma abg ased.Mnom beb!
But lyn was at hme.
Had lunch wif lilo and laughng gas ku, Izzat!
Aftr dat blek uma lilo, siap2 g Eunos.
Jmpela Boifyku, SAM!
hahahaha
I MISS YOU so much sey bie.
BLUECKZ!
Lps tu blek la.
p.s. lyn gve me baju yg slame nie ku idam2 kn.
AT LAST!
phew:)!
Klaa gtg!
Btw bsok cik nk cabot dry keje nie noh.
Satu bnde pon ku tk phm.
Cabot2, p atleast i got a new job.
Kak nana recommend tao, Mango or Isetan.
Oky tk?
KKKKKKKKK!
gtg! da nk blek la.
yeayeayeayea!

2009-06-18T18:09:00.000+08:00

hey2.

nary slack gler la sey.
i rely cant resist d FERRERO ROCHER i had jus now.
Btw........

HAPPY BDAY KAK IFAH!

hahah.
had a coffee cake. sodoooop pe.
klaa gtg!
colng2 lgy.
boredoms KILLS alot.
Blueck:)!!

2009-06-14T16:06:00.003+08:00

If I were a boy.

Even just for a day.
I'd roll outta bed in the morning.
And throw on what i wanted then go.
Drink beers with the guys.
And chase after girls.
I'd kick it with who i wanted.
And I never get confronted for it.
Cause they'd stick up for me.

If i were a boy,
I think i could understand.
How it feels to love a girl, I swear I be a better man.
I 'd listen to her.
Cause i know how it hurts.
When you lose the one you wanted.
Cause he`s taken you for granted.
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy.
I could turn off my phone.
Tell everyone it`s broken.
So they`d think that I was sleepin` alone.
I`d put myself first.
And make the rules as I go.
Cause I know that she`d be faithful.
Waitin` for me to come home,to come home.

If i were a boy...
I think I could understand.
How it feels to love a girl.
I swear I `d be a better man.
I`d listen to her.
Cause i know how it hurts.
When you lose the one you wanted.
Cause he`s taken you for granted.
And everything you had got destroyed
It`s a little too late for you to come back.
Say its just a mistake.
Think I`d forgive you like that.
If you thought I would wait for you.
You thought wrong.

But you`re just a boy.
You don`t understand.
Yeah you don`t understand.
How it feels to love a girl someday.
You wish you were a better man.
You don`t listen to her...

You don`t care how it hurts.
Until you lose the one you wanted.
Cause you`ve taken her for granted.
And everything you have got destroyed.
But You Just A Boy.

2009-06-11T17:41:00.000+08:00

hey2

lamer kn da tk blog?!

hahahahah

bzy beb, kate da keje, hmph.

Btw mny tngs hpen dis days.

first is werk, im so called promoted to Sales Consultant.

Its prety tough but tryng my best to cope wif those presentation.

Hpy psl i finaly closed a deal for dis client. Alhamdullilah!

Second is im fuckng confused, still......

Sape yg ku nk plih nie.

Pls, gve me d fuckng choice la eh.

Amy!

U fall in love wif me, but i rely treat you jus a besty. Not mre den dat taw.

Tpy how do i tell him?! I dont wnt to hurt him or gve him a hopes for me.

Pls la Amy, i cant be your first girl. Im not good enof and u dservd smeone beta taw.

U noe dat i got a beautiful daughter, pls la get off of me.

Gve me d space.

Sam!

U mke me feel guity. I jus dnt noe why.

But sincerely d love for didnt fade 1oo%.

A lilbit to go to to HATE you frevr. HAHAhahahAh!

Prove me dat u rely Love me but not usng me cos im kind or wad so evr reason eh.

Mohamad Fauzi!

Fr u its a different case taw.

D love i had for u for 1 yr plus, nvr fade in any ways k.

Jus dnt frget dat we do shre a beautiful momts evn though it didnt last.

Mybe im being too stupid to left you on dat day.

Cos d only word i wllng to say is I Love You!

ME and Lilo is getng farfar away.

Not only bcos of im werkng but also bcos of her attitude.

Im jus doing for my best.

Hey2, dade kwn baru sey FathimNurAisya.

Nur, Amira, Kak Ifah, Efa and d otha 2 which i dnt noe their name.

huahuahua!

klaa gtg!

tkot boss blek beb.

hahahah!

Dynea Firliyana Bte Mohamad Fauzi, mama miss u alot taw syg.

tkmo noty2 k. Sundy mama dtg k swetheart.

Muaahmuaahmuaah!

2009-05-30T16:44:00.000+08:00

hey2..

tody i was quite pissoff.

First its wif lilo and den my 'mouth'.

Lilo!

She jus cme for her frst day work 2 days ago. And yet she didnt cme frm work since dat day. D first reason was lyk she's hvng a 'fever' den tody at 9:15am i rceivd a msg frm her, she ask to call her bck. And i only did dat at 1o:3oam. Izzat pickup d fone.

D Conversation!

Me: Izat, mane lilo?

Izat: Lilo tdo ah..

Me: Kejot die bngon ah siol.

Izat: Actually nary lilo tk bley keje.

Me: Asl?! [im bginng to be angry!]

Izat: Nary abg ku kn de function.

Me: Kmak, tu korg nyr psl ah siol.

Izat: Ko de no. eddy?

Me:Ade ah! Ko g pndi2 ah eh bbual ngn die.

Izat: Nnty ko g keje, tnyr skaly ah klao mash ade vacancy ke tk.

Me: [Im ordy pissoff wif his gf, he stll cn askd me to do him a favour!] Kmak, lilo da prangai bey ko plak nk keje. korg same je ah siol!!!

Hmph, nnty ku msg ko no. eddy ah.

In d MSG!

Eh farah, ko dgr cny eh. Klao ko pk ko tknk keje, ckp ah siang2. Prangai tkmo mcm sial ah siol. Atleast ku tolg ko siot, ko tk tawu appreciate pe?! Nie no. eddy ................... Ko tkmo contct ku lgy ah. Thks ah eh da malukn ku.

As for my mouth. Im hvng a ulcer. "Ouchhhhy" sey until it affects my head and im hvng a headache rght nw. Haha, and im hvng a half day tody.

And nw im so stressup for my fonepitch! Mondy da start d real callng.

Can I cope up? O~myg!

Relax aisya! be confident!

klaa, gtg! gg hme soon! tired la sey, tmrw i stll have to go kak yaya weddng!

2009-05-27T18:07:00.000+08:00

hey readers.

Tody was normal day la, as usual.

Work and homy.

Btw Scandalku, Lilo got a job at last and she's workng d sme compny as mine.

Great for her la.

Tgok sape Besty die..... hahahahhahah!

Btw iym freakng d free, but bored k.

No work to do.

Hmph..............

Specially for U!
U say i cant escape frm u and try my best to do so?!
Huh?!
I tink u blm tawu sape Fathim Nur Aisya lgy k!
I will do anytng to mke sure dat u dnt exist in my hpy life rght nw.
Its ur pasal if u cant stop tinkng of me, cos u are d one dat choose to go our sparate ways.
And nw u are like damn fuckng irritatng 'bitch' boy dat stll gg aftr d tormentd r'ship.
Fr u to noe, i prefer to be single as usual.
D Aisya or Bby u use to noe is no longr YOURS!
Get d Fuckng out frm my Beautful Life.

plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls!

2009-05-26T19:32:00.001+08:00

my brain is burstng soon!

evryday bfre i go to work, i will stand infront of my wardrobe and stare at d outfits.

squeezng my brain thnkng wad iym gg to wear

Omg! Dpt gaji msti kene beli baju offce.

Nyrla skg kn da keje ofce, must wear smetng Elegant and Sophisticated.

Hahahahh!

Still waitng for my Dearest Boss, Eddy!

Whre are u?!

Klaa, gtg!

my trainer is shoutng my name!

ok cat, iym comng!

2009-05-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

while waitng for eddy....

haiz iym stuck in dis office wif one of my work fren.
hahah!
dis is my secnd day workng in RedBee la sey.
I felt so hpy fr myslf, finally aftr a long tme. I GOT A JOB!
hahahah!
Mny tngs hapen snce my last blog...
HAPPY AND SAD One!
klaa, gtg!

2009-05-17T13:57:00.000+08:00

Omg!

Smebody is fallink love, not me eh.

But wif me!

I rely cant accept you.

And i tink certain pple should noe why.

Fr you couple dat force me to go on, jus leaved my life alone.

And fr u Amy, i cant accept you bcose thrs smeone out thr dat nid me mre.

I can stll be ur fren, but jus fren.

Evn though you cn accpt my life, but i wll stll stick to my dcsion.

Stayink sngle is jus my big wnts now.

No mre bf fr me.

I mre concentratink into my famly and daughtr.

Hpe u undrstnd k.

And fr him *****, i rely rgret wad had hapen.

If i were to noe u rely care fr me even though u hide dat feelinks.

I wll jus endure!

I've made a big mstke!!!

I wll show dat i cn chnge into a bttr prson.

Iym stll waitink fr u! mohamadfauzibinmohamadfahmi!

2009-05-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

Nobody in this world shall replaced her. She's everytng in my life. She's my friend, gf, and of cose a superb mother. Ive thrown enough shit to her face, but she still can accept me.

The time wen i need smeone to replace my friends, fauzi came in my life. The first tym, she saw him. She rely thot dat fauzi can make me hapy. So she rely put 1oo% trust on him. She even told fauzi to tkcre good of care me.

When she found that iym pregnant, her tears roll dwn her cheek. All she asked why Iym doing this to her. I jus mute! When i told her that the baby is fauzi's one, the saddest tng is she dont blieved me.

On 20 July 2008, I gave birth to a baby girl, Dynea Firliyana. Iym oredy clled a mother. And nw den i realised dat its not easy to be a good mother.

I wont dissapoint you mre!
Frgve all my mstkes!
I love you, mumy!

2009-05-08T16:44:00.000+08:00

FuckFuckFuck!

I really thought that I going to frget u frevr.
But actually NO!
Asl sey ..
You are jus same lyk some other crack i knew bfre u.
Evn i get to noe a new guy, Amy.
But I still cant frgt u.
Evn we dont shre a lasty momts.

At last aku tawu knpe kau matae ngn aku, psl kesian kn?
Eh llaky, u lsten hear eh! I dnt need a fucking Sympathy frm U!
Aku pon tk mntk kau jage ank aku.
My Daughter, My Responsibility!
Fuck, I keep telling myslf dat I HATE U, But I STILL LOVE U!

Omg! FathimNurAisya, Plsla lupekn die. He no mre exist in your life. He hurt u! Get him out frm ur broken heart. U need smeone dat is faithful and love u wif their fullest heart.

Fr *****, I still Love You!

2009-05-08T15:48:00.001+08:00

Memories for ME to read through and LAUGH my throat OUT!

CRAPS I do at home when BOREDOMS KILLS!
...1: Shake leg and dream on, on my sofabed!
...2: Eat up the junkies in the refrigerator!
...3: Textup my scandal, lilo.. my future bf, amy!
...4: Shut my eyes and dose off on my sofabed!

What I stuff inside my MOUTH when my STOMACH SINGS!
...1: Mumy's dish!
...2: Digup my chiller and fry some junkies!
...3: My tidbits or my sibling tidbits!

CRAPS I do when people snoring!
...1: Textup my scandal, amy or sam!
...2: Huff and puff when my throat get dry!
...3: Digup my tidbits!

My HOBBIES when Im AWAKE!
...1: Open my eyes smally!
...2: Dose back!
...3: Shouting mumy, woke me up!
...4: Stretch my head off!
...5: Thinking of my nightdreams!
...6: Foldup my sofabed!
...7: Washup!
...8: Huff and puff!
...9: Breakfast!

My CRAZINESS when Im ATTACHED!
...1: Smile until my mouth reachup my cheek!
...2: Inform my Scandal, Farahdiana!
...3: Hint mumy that Im Attached!
...4: Not Sleeping when people is Snoring!

My SADNESS when Im HURT!
...1: Cry until my tears Dryup!
...2: Huff and puff like a Dragon!
...3: Throwing temper on anybody!
...4: Shareup with my Scandal, Farahdiana!

My Latest EX Bf?
... Sam!
My Future Bf?
... Amy!
My Forever Scandal?
... Farahdiana!
My Laughing Gas?
... Izzaton!
My Dreamon Bf?
... *****!

What Im still waiting for?
...1: Waiting for Amy to be my Bfy!
...2: Waiting for Sam asking for a Patch!

2009-05-08T14:36:00.000+08:00

Specially for YOU!

Since the day.

I feel those sudden change.

But i kept silent.

Thinking of you really make me sick.

You told me that you miss me.

But you just kept quiet.

Whats my fault?

When i ask for a BREAKUP.

You say lets give it another try.

On 3o April 2oo9.

You wish me, Happy Anny.

We even spent our anny togther.

But on 1 May 2oo9.

I broke into tears.

I asked why the sudden answer.

You said that its a pity that you cant stay any longer with me.

Because you think that its hard being faithful.

So all this while, you are not faithful?

Then whats with the promises?

Lastly you said lets be friend and maybe being friend can lead us to a new rlationship.

You are just the same crap I knew before you.

2009-04-22T14:08:00.000+08:00

hey2.

notng much hapenink tody.

21 april 2oo9!
Alhamdulilah, i got my shre too. Thks to d god..
To u if u are readink dis.
Ive nvr wnted dis tnggy to hapen but beink patience fr too long is painful. Only god up thr dat noes wads in my minds and hopes. Yess, u are ryt. Ive owes wnt d best fr Dynea dats why im beink reasonable and jus let dem hve d guardianshp. Mumy owes tell me dat 'mngalah, tk smsty nyr kte klh'. Ive nvr said ur famly is dat bad, but im jus statink facts and feelinks.
But rmbr, a Daughter will nvr frget her Mother even though how bad is her Mother..
I rely appreciate evry single tng ur famly hve done fr me, tpy tk bgos klao nk bbual blkng..
Nie bkn soal menang or kalah cos we are not playink a game.
its all bout beink fair.
its ezy fr me to frgve but not frget. thk u fr beink a great famly evn though it didnt lst long.
hmph!

2009-04-10T12:19:00.001+08:00

15 april 2oo9, Aaliya Reihana is turnink 1 yr old.

2009-04-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

hey2.

nary ku very d slacky..
Lps nie g jmpe boify ku.
Lpk jap, den hsh..
btw, 3o march 2oo9 is d date huh.
Finally gue attached aftr beink single for so long.
But status nvr chnge..
Cose ive promse myslf dat" no actions dat prove iym urs, iym still single'mingle".
No mre 1oo% for u ladies and gentleman bcose now iym tryink hard trustink dat i can bleached myslf..
huhu~!

klaa gtg~!

2009-04-10T11:39:00.000+08:00

How hard i try to forget you, but i still cant.
All d days we shared, be it a swet or sour one.
Bcomes pieces of mmories.
And dat mmories still stuck in my head.
Its easy for me to hate you, but its hard for me to forget you.
Evrytym i flashback our histories, tears roll dwn my cheek.
But i noe dis is all challenges dat i hve to fight for it.
Mybe now i cant say anytng bcose GOD is d one dat arrange our lyfs.
Mybe ur famly will condemnink me aftr all d rumours and lies spreadink all ard.
But lyk my dad said to me once,"gve me one mre chances to prove dat i can change".
D girl dat u hve shattered her drem no longr d weak type cose aftr all d suffer she gone truu, she finally bcome smeone strongr.
Even though shes attached, but her first priority is her daughtr, Dynea.

U are my bitter mmories!

2009-04-04T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hey2,
its been a long day since the day i blog.
supposely i should be goink to an interview at eunos. But im late, so one job is gone.
Btw on thursday lilo, ct and me went out lookink fr job, but o'my its damn early in the mornink. I woke up at 6 am, get redy and sent my brox to skool. Aftr dat, took a train to chnatown and meet lilo. But the bad news is she cant her damn cash out from the POSB! O'my. So i paid her fare. Den met ct jurong control station, supposely we should be goink fr an interview too, but late again. Its ur fault ct! So we had our breakfast at dis hawkr centre. Aftr dat we make a move to Bugis cose lilo said dad ders a vacancy for dis arcade at dis new shoppink centre at Bugis 'i dont noe d name of d shoppink centre' But too bad the vacancy is full! Gagagagagagagagaga!! Den we went lookink fr job again at Bugis Street, evrywhre! O'my, im freakink tired sey! Den i went to bought strait times. Ct was so enthusiastic one.. Relek arh siol! I dediced to backoff and went to amk for the supervision. Gd news, my officr tell me dat ders no need for me to rport again. Yea! Klaa, gtg! Btw frget to tell dat finally im ATTACHED!

Ps: i guess u are still not matured yet, look at ur age. jus 19 ryt, if im not wrong. But u still talk abt d fuckink tormented past. Rmbr, ders owes a karma! Specially fr U!

2009-02-21T16:55:00.000+08:00

Eylo readers,

Finally iym back afta losink myself for quite sometym.

Its a CRUEL LYF back den, but now i had enough of d lyf i've gone through ALONE!!

Tq to my BELOVED MUMY,DADY,REALDAD & MAMA for acceptink me back even afta i've done enough craps out here. And many2 thks to my dear SCANDAL, LILO for helpink me all dis while. But sadly to say i left my bloved daughter wif him dat i hate soooo much. Buts its oky, at least she have a good lyf even went iym not by her side... *BUT DONT WORRY SWETHEART, MAMA GOINK TOO MAKE U SEE D REASONS*

Iym goink to fight for my right afta all dis while iym sufferink all ALONE.

I dclare myself to be a single-mama. And iym goink to be a strong mama even though without hym. Iym rely happy to be alone, but ders one tng dat iym sad of, my bloved babygirl. Ape yg tjadi pasti ade hikmahnyr k ankku...

2008-11-02T13:29:00.000+08:00

hey2...

kenyang larsey..
woke up by swetlove irritating alarm.
it SUCKS lar B..
but neymind at least u woke me up to.
ask him if today his working.

D CONVERSATIONS
ME~ B, nari tk keje ehq?
S.L.~ [woke up in a blur impact] owwww!
S.L.~ [tgok hfone, den make himslf quick to de toilet, shower]
i called my bloved kak fara, cos in d morning she msgx me asking if iym going to mkngah's hse cos she's having a Open House.
ME~ [calling kak fara]
Fara~ [pick d fone]
ME~mkngah bken Open House?
Fara~ahah.
ME~sape blg?
Fara~abg fadly.
Fara~adk pg?
ME~tk tau arh
FARA~g arh mumy tkdelar dek.

but i've made d dcsion not to go.
conferm smue ade, so tknklar.
haiz.

S.L.~mkck u bken open hse pon u tk tau..
ME~crious, i tk tau sey B.
swetlove give me 20 bucks & ask me to jmat2.
S.L.~gpon monday u nk g intview kn?
ME~oky B!
i took a bath, den ask mama's if we going to shan wedding invitation,
mama said no cose tiringlar.
so kte p mkn toa payoh, forks & spoon.
i & farah ate chicken rice while mama ate yong tau foo.[mama g ane2 pon mkn ytf]
baba tk mkn.
den HSH [home swet home]
mayb ptg nie g mkn ngn famx baba.
ahah!
see u cuzeys!
prety soon.
UPDATE!

2008-11-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

28 days more to go.........
my bday tao.......
hhahahah!

2008-11-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

hey....

today quite a tiring day, yet i & swetlove had so much fun.
jus now was our 2nd course.
bley thn gerek arh.
evrybody was sporting. [kn b kn?!]
even swetlove took part in one of de actvties.
for breakfast, i didnt had anytng to eat.
lgpon tk lpr, so i gve up de epok2 & roti to swetlove instead.
tadi ade jgk member swetlove gue. [hmph...]
for lunch, since swetlove budgeting duet, kte mkn free larsey.
instead duetnye tuh beli rokoklar.
as usual sampoerna, his fave.
had a huff~puff section.
afta dat wen back to de room.
contnue wid de journey.
at last of de section, evry group have to choose 2 prson to act a sketch of kassim slamt.
[laughing non-stop]
afta de sketch, biaselar kene bken feedback form.
pas tuh kte pon go home, p naek bus since swetlove gue nary tk bwk motor.
so we go on public. [swetkn]
smpi uma, swetlove lek2 kjp.
den he ged redy for werk.
[dgr2 nary nk kua ehq B?!]
[g ane sey?!][evil look]

oyea! bsok ade jmpotan sey.
Shan & Faezah wedding lar.
congrats guys.
hrp smpi ke ank cucu ehq.
anyway kuh ckp mcm gnie mcm dar lame knl gtuh,
padehal baru jmpe shan skali jek. [laughing freakly]
tapi sad to say swetlove gue tk dpt hadirlar.
werking as usual...
oyea! gue dar pnt bebx...
gue update u nxt tym kkkkk....

2008-10-31T20:49:00.000+08:00

hey...

i noe jus now i jus updated my bloggy.

but i tink its not only dat huh.

still got more to go lar.

on monday went out wid mona, we went to town...

"D CONVERSATIONS"

mona: atm, aku nk p taka arh.

fathim:buat pe siol?!

mona:aku dpt voucher $50 untok TAKA.

fathim:oky.

"we went to town from mona plce"

"reached town"

fathim:nk g ane na?

mona:TAKA arh.

mona:ehq, tk yah lar.

fathim:asl?! [huh face]

mona:aku nk save untok christmas arh.

fathim:gle arh kao ni. [laughink]

we went to Far East Plaza.

ate at Cahaya restaurant.
mona had tom yum noodle and i had wanton noodle.

but guess wad, we canot fnish it larsey.

afta dat kte jln2.

mona saw dis shop, saw dis shirt, try on it and she bought it.

[padehal dieq tkde plan tao nk beli baju]

den we went to anotha shop, REVOLTAGE.

baju dieq smue lawa2 larsey.

geram jeq tgok. [angry & jlous smile]

mona beli lg, haiyooo!

pas tuh kte jln2.
had an turkey ice-cream.

oyea! wen we were eatink mona called aishah and asked whre is she?

she said she's getink redy to myt her "tangkes'ayid"

so planned to myt her at paya lebar.

bfore mytink her, we went to karaoke at grandlink square.

afta dat we myt her.

kte mkn jap kt Haig rd.

while eatink saw hayati, aishah's sisx.

afta eatink, planned to go whre.

at last come wyd a plan to go esp.

took picx at ESP only lar....

marina steps...

marina toilet...

HOME SWET HOME

2008-10-31T14:20:00.000+08:00

eylo......
dis a new post and new bloggy...
blog yg lame, haiz....
tk payah ckplar...
dont noe wad i've done smpi my entry smue hlg...
glerlar... [freak out]
tapi tkpe, lps nie dar tknk edit template lglar....
hahahahahha....;
smpi skg tk dpt2 keje, cmne nie....
haiy0o... [piss off larsey]
my lyf is going a miserable one tao....
many2 tngs hapen, tapi tkkn nk blg smuenye kn?!
dar tkde privacy-lar gtu...
Anyway pple out der i rely nyd a job larsey...
STRESSNYER AKU!!!!
fuck off bitch................

2008-10-23T21:39:00.001+08:00

eylo..........